My Mother Greets Kali, 1965

Elizabeth Barbato

 

St. Mary-of-the-Woods, Jasper, Indiana

 

Her retching tongue, emblem of arrested destruction, foot planted stern on Shiva’s back

are not the most disturbing aspects of the statue, on this unmarked postcard delivered

 

unaddressed; nor her four arms, a blue moonrise, nor her entombment in welling rock:

it is her name—Dark Mother—her blessing hands, blackened face transcendent vortex.

 

My mother at 24 picks at threads of new-won habit over knees pummeled sore

from scrubbing floors.  Every night before the Great Silence begins batwing soft

 

the other women’s mouths move, their backs straight wires to the sky, hung swallows:

but the sounds unhinge, their teeth verge on bloody in chapel light, the wingsdrumming.

 

My mother’s eyes go a little whiter, spooked horse.  What coriolis force awaits?

She has lived here for seven years.  She has swept.  She has climbed the stair to her cell,

 

to sleep upon her iron bed, to bell prayer in the night, and, now, to study Kali’s

skull necklace dance, cupped bone gongs of language, 50 true runes, vibration’s origin.

 

The chapel’s wood smoothed with a thousand thousand hands clutching hanks of hair

long shaved off, the love of chaos pressed into the grain of pews, walls, smothered.

 

Namaste, breathes Kali: I salute the light within you.  My mother scrutinizes chaos,

decides she cannot befriend it, master its trump, its tides.  Fingering a chain, a rope,

 

a nail, she goes back to her chores, the smell of oranges, her knitted thoughts, spoilt

now by a woman’s bared breast, unveiled Shakti, which makes her shudder,

 

which makes her forget about it all—the jungle, the sea, the caves, the still sun—

and take up her place again on the floor, where she is subsumed, just as

 

her own split Mother—missing two arms, covered from head to toe—is relegated

to the side aisle, ever damned to watch her Son writhe in mortal, missionary air.

           


Elizabeth Barbato was born in New England but somehow ended up in New Jersey, where for fourteen years she has taught writing, drama and music to every age from kindergarteners to high school seniors.   Elizabeth’s work is in current or forthcoming editions of Apple Valley Review, Poetrybay, Foliate Oak, The Litchfield Review, Ghoti(fish),The Chimaera, All Things Girl, Stride, Origami Condom, Word For/Word and Cantaraville

  

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