Haunting My Husband

Antonia Clark

 

Nothing much has changed.

He looks right through me,

doesn’t hear a word

I say, forgets all

my instructions: where

we keep the strainer,

how to fold the sheets.

 

I trail him room to room, 

like our ancient hound dog,

waiting for a welcome--

Come here, old girl--

careful to walk

around furniture

I now could well pass

through, wondering

what trick to try next.

 

He may lift his head,

as though sensing

a barometric shift,

a thickening of air,

but it's always nothing.

He shrugs, carries

his empty cup to the sink.

 

I still wrap myself

around him, rubbing

my cheek against his

stubbly morning face,

and can almost feel

the scrape of whiskers.

 

And sometimes at night,

dazed by dream, he still

reaches out to me,

before I resolve

into my true form:

a lingering memory.

 

I’d rattle dishes,

flick lights on and off,

whoosh past his ear 

if I thought there were

a ghost of a chance

he’d notice.

 

Copyright 2007 by the Tipton Poetry Journal.

All rights remain the exclusive property of the individual poet and may not be used without their permission.

 

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